I am 30 years old, a working mother, and struggling with the fact that I now a parent. I love my son, he now 3 years old and makes me laugh almost everyday. But I do have those days where I wonder what was I thinking having a child. It gets really tough and there are days where I cry and cry, making sure no one can hear me or know that I am, at that moment, regretting I have the responsibility of being a parent. No one will ever tell you their true story of how many days they wish they never had kids, mainly because, you do have the moments where you truly enjoy your child and having them in your life, however, sometimes those days can be few and far between.
I truly believe, the struggles of what having a child is truly like, is one of the world's best kept secrets. I should have know something was wrong when Oprah had made the decision to not bare kids. I believe she has heard the stories first hand and has made an informed decision of not going through 10 not 9 months, like most of us believed, of caring a child and then to go through the worst pain in your life to deliver. Not to mention the undeniable strong possibility of the father or even husband, being able to deal with the enormous change you both will experience good enough to make it past the 1 year mark.
Because let's be honest...the first six months will be the hardest of your life! Screw the fact that you believe you have enough "help" from family and/or friends to make it through. The only way to truly prepare for having a child will be to have only 3-4 consecutive hours of sleep, with a small nap during the day for 6-7 months. Even then you will only have a small sense of what it will be like to care for a child at night.
If you have a sense of how I feel let me know.
A Working Mother
